Wilderness

The peoples have left the lighted paths
feel now their way with outstretched hands
along choked and darkened roads
city slithering alleys, ruined country lanes.
Behind them they hear disturbed voices
a babble of whispered tongues speaking
what was, could have been, may be.

The ground become a shaking wilderness
changing, unknown and new, boiling
as darkness eclipses a failing light.
A gloaming gathers in heavy folds
weighing down, turbulent, roiling.

Bleak the countryside, the burning fields
ruined trees of ash and smoke;
the drowned land, the melting ice,
animals set adrift in unknown seas.
Fare-thee-well and so sorry
to have forgotten and lost you.

What has become the solace of green gardens
freshets of bubbling life from cold streams
swirling down from glaciered mountains?
Where the sweet murmur of silent prayer –
faith, hope, love, sacred forgiveness –
becoming light within a child’s dream?

What world will the people choose
having so much lost and still to lose?
And I – what will I choose
within the light of knowledge I possess
of what I’ve done and failed to do?


Portland, Oregon – August 19, 2019

Elegy for a Crow

Into our front window flew a crow
as I sat outside on a summer morn.
Toward me she came in slow glide
stilled wings brushing cool
the air that touched my face.
I turned to watch her walk
drunkenly down the drive
seeing in basement windows
her dazed and dazzling self –
black, beautiful, broken.

She flew away during the day
by evening she was gone –
mended and on the wing?
No. Flying low, again she came
landing hard near where we sat
her pursuers fast behind:
“Caw, caw, cawing….”

Evening’s light gave way to night
as I went outside to see if she lived.
There she lay on a path next the rose
while in a moment more stood and stepped
as I went indoors, trying to let it go
this drama in the life of a crow.

When morning came she was gone
so it seemed, all day long.
In the evening, cool drinks under shade,
I raised my eyes to see
beneath the rose, dead was she.

Close by me she had flown
came once and again and again
at last to stay where she chose.
Did she find sanctuary here
or just the dying light beneath the rose?

What can I know of death for a crow?
I can barely speak or know
my own hurt, disease, suffering,
or what I did to make it so.


Portland, Oregon – August 6, 2019

This Moment

This moment is a deliberate act –
Being breathing undulations of creation
across the warp and weft of the eternal now.

Your inhale drinks from earth’s spring
blossoms and crests in its zenith pause
suspending time as the moment lingers.
My exhale, spending the sun’s light,
folds the radiant bloom into dusk and night
welcomed by solar winds and wintry moons.

Ah! One willful creative act – this moment –
pushes aside the unforgiving past, that spell
woven of slender and fragile threads;
tears at the gauzy gossamer mirage
of illusion and desire, spun as a veil
over what may be, shredded to reveal
the calm and incandescent present.

This moment!
Who will stand at its threshold gaily
waving the starting flag to watch
as it rounds the four corners?
Who will usher it to the finish line
shouting, “Hurrah! Alleluia! Well done!”?
If not me, then the stones and the stars,
birds and brambles, lilies of the field,
river and snow, wind through the trees,
every slivery particle and silvery wave!


Portland, Oregon – July 18, 2019

Why did you stop writing?

Why did you stop writing
when I know you have the words?
Your blank white pages
wait for your return.
Are you there?
Are you well?

I lost many words
during years I did not
believe I could find them
out on the tender and vast
landscape of my own living being
stretched across the years.

I did not know they were there
waiting for me to find them.
They did not call with loud voices
but lay silent all along
the paths of the green fields
of my one and only life.

I am gathering them up now,
words along the wayside fallen.
I will arrange them in lines
on the forbidding white page
making, fashioning, creating
a poem from me to you.

Our words – we string them together
as best we can – a gift
we were given from birth.
They help to patch holes
we’ve left behind us.
They help to create the way before us
into the green fields of our lives.


Portland, Oregon – June 23, 2019

I follow a few poetry blogs but noticed I’d not seen writing from some for a long time. I wonder what happened that they stopped writing?  There may be very good reasons. I know that it took many years for me to start up again, so there is hope for all writers out there.  Just start again, I beg you!

Weather and Climate Change

The weather changed today.
In the morning a marine layer, crisp,
lowered over the Pacific northwest –
gray and calm, cool as a silent prayer.
In the afternoon the sun drifted
overhead through wispy clouds;
warmth spread over our splendid fields
as spring became summer.

As a young boy a day such as this
was all I knew of weather.
As for climate, as with all science,
I was blissfully unaware
content to wish upon stars.

I’ve only wanted daily weather –
seasonal changes from warm to cold,
rain to wind to snow.
It was enough for me to know
that climate changes because
the axial tilt of the earth,
at 23.5 degrees, makes it so,
while the orbiting moon flails
endlessly at the foaming seas.

How little I knew of weather,
of climate and their ways.
The blame is mine.
As a boy I lay in the summer grass
watching the clouds drift by.
It was all I ever wanted to know
of weather, climate change
and the passing of our limited time. 


Portland, Oregon – Summer solstice, June 21, 2019.

Daybreak

Aurora – Sun breaking dawn
Ora – Morning prayer
Aural – Birdsong


I can see
can hear
the shell of day
breaking in the morn,
cracked open in sharp sound
pouring clear sky
yolk of sun
sizzling in cool breeze
night fleeing the scene.

Day begins
broken, bright,
auroral, ora, aural.


Portland, Oregon – June 17, 2019

Light Through the Window

Through the front window
the sun’s warm light comes
in bright fingers feeling
windows and walls, fashioning
mosaics in shadows on the floor.
Whispers of wind in motion
enter the room as leaves
twisting on their branches
to form the sacred images of home.

The living room is still;
in the westering sun’s light –
aflame – the final flickering
before that bright being bends
simmering into still and dark waters.
The warm glow through the window fades,
deepening shadows lengthen and congeal
until the room itself vanishes
into the cool and quiet of night.


Portland, Oregon – June 11, 2019

Pages of the Night

I will not turn on the light
as beside me she sleeps still.
Unstill I lie, reading lines
written onto the pages of night.
Projected there is darkness spelled in verse
lit from within by the light of memory.
I read, from a continuous scroll of poetic refrains,
a story of life without rhyme or form
flickering as if it were something old
unknown, without meter, beginning or end –
edited solely for the life of dreams.


Portland, Oregon – June 4, 2019

Atlas

I am Atlas, holding the world.
It is light, a jewel reflecting light
held in my outstretched hand.

I was young and I let it go,
went my way, wandered about
forgetting what once I held.

Older now, with time on my hands,
I wonder whether, once again,
I can hold the world?

I turn, turn again, and again
to see, to my surprise,
the world tilting its way
towards me, fallen nor broken not.

I seem to see it from afar
it’s beginning and it’s end.
It comes to me, turning
as motion of darkness to light.

Comes? No. The world pours itself
into my hands as grace –
water from pitcher to cup,
river to slow fall
into a serene and clear pool.

Once I let the world go,
it’s weight I could not bear.
Now, I take it up again
to feel the expectant thrill
of a child reaching for the moon.


Portland, Oregon – May 15, 2019

 

This Evening

In all the worlds
in all the universe
all the sunsets
uncountable.
Here is mine
on a cool spring evening.
This setting sun
through green growth
and the wind.
Is there another
like it, anywhere
in all the universe
and all the worlds
and all the evenings
of all the days that are
or ever were?


Portland, Oregon – April 27, 2019