Darkness within Darkness

What could this mean – darkness
as in the deepest night
without brilliance of bright moons
or morning stars in quiet flame?
Darkness as in a mid-day breeze
when all the flowers bloom
sway from side to side
without meaning, just shadows
of light wavering over stillness?

In the rain on a spring evening
darkness walks the garden
settles in among the small leaves
unfolding resplendent life
in flickering forms of fading light
their points punctuating darkness.

I see the heavens, flowers and the leaves –
darkness hiding in them, between
their folds, their flung lights
in all the mindless gaps
between the stars, before the sun
shimmering in every thing.


Portland, Oregon – May 1, 2017

My title and inspiration comes from the last verse of Stephen Mitchell’s translation of chapter one of the Tao Te Ching, of Lao-tzu:  “Darkness within darkness.  The gateway to all understanding.”

If I Were to Build a Home

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If I were to build a home
on the banks of a river it would be
to see come at me
snowmelt surge from mountains
passing in turbulent cold depth
in wild rush over worn boulders
then watch as it goes, flows away
to the surf and sand of an oceans edge
losing itself in curling waves
breaking on sea stacks slow eroding
over a long beach where children run
unaware, with gleeful cries.
That is where my final home will be
built not by my own hands
but by the hands of another.


Portland, Oregon – April 27, 2017

Photo is my own, taken 12/28/16 – the McKenzie River, Oregon, late afternoon.

Thinking like Stars

Shall I think as stars do –
distant, bright, placid
set in motion, making their way
as Buddhas, mindless
travelling interstellar pathways?

What do the stars think of us
our own star even our moon?
Heavens! The singing bird in the thicket
knows me not nor sings for me.

What shall I think of this?
I shall think – the glory!

Bird, star, self.
We carry our own thoughts
through the nights
in our sleep and in our dreams.


Portland, Oregon – April 18, 2017

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Board the ferry in Seattle, cross the water
between glass and steel, loading docks big cranes
early morning darkness hum of engine churned waves –
moon to port in thin layers of flitting night cloud.
Roll off slow, uphill curve to the Hood Canal bridge
steel spine gray in pixelated light over dark water.
Hot coffee smell weaving through evergreen forests
on up to Sequim, dry in the shadow of Olympic peaks.

Leaving Port Angeles is leaving the known world.
America fades into the rear view mirror
as dawn rises slowly over the Cascade rim
light flowing soft on the Strait and foothills
a cleansing pour of shine filtered through a green haze
as the road courses past rocky beaches, dark groves.
Morning settles in along Highway 101
driving in trickling shadows up to Crescent lake.

Moving in the realm of the Salish sea
rising and falling in tidal movement
shaping the coves and borders of the land.
Mists and lifting fog shift in a whirling pavane
in the cool and drip of summers morning
along the pathway of the westering Sol Duc
before crossing the Calawah entering Forks –
chatter of the Thriftway and a fresh cup to go.

In southerly drift along the continents ragged edge –
the Bogachiel bridge curves in graceful arc
through a valley in the gaze of snow covered heights.
Broken land along the way, timber land
timbered tracts of slash heaps and forlorn stumps
to the tops of the once green sylvan hills
scattered through the scarred river plains
washed in snow melt and falling rain through all the hills.

America’s lost corner – of Makah, Quinault –
north by northwest, where the dream ends
in washed coves, lone beach head promontories
open to the sea beyond the reach of forests
deep in dark fir and fern entanglement
home of Sasquatch, big foot, rumored, unseen
pillaging the thoughts of dwellers in primal space
dripping under eves of moss laden leaky roofs.

Out of nowhere an eastward turn, metanoia,
as a pale sun brushes the shifting cloud cover
branch shadowing the road up the river valley
tracing its course under an arching evergreen
losing time by the minutes and the hours
moving senses slowly towards consciousness
of space in primeval and verdant infancy
efflorescent, fresh, bathed in effulgence.

This last road leads in a slow meander
up into the coastal rainforest of the Hoh –
rare earth in a fragile and disquieted land
where silence lives and in the night, darkness.
In evening camp I sit by the rush of river
sipping whiskey beneath fir and hemlock,
old before I was born or my fathers
before my mothers lived, conceived and bore.

I’ll hike the river trail in the morning
surrounded by soft beds of thick moss, green
if green is green of a thousand different shades
up in the trees, moss to the high branches
vying with ferns for space, feelers probing
forming intricacies of water, light, shadow –
patterns of life in deep, terra, mute abundance –
another spore, nurse log, fungus, another time.

Rain drizzle sifts through a dense canopy
hovering over rivulets floating
clear across sand and pebble speckled beds,
fallen surface leaves held and spun.
Black bear and antlered elk roam in these woods
foraging unseen around each turn of the trail.
Bear bell jingling, walking sticks on the path
I wander for miles in sensual bliss.


Portland, Oregon – April 1, 2017

Photo is my own – the base of a Bigleaf maple beside the Hoh river trail. One of the photos I use as a rotating  site header is also of the Hoh river and valley during a light rain.

Sanctuary

Where is the place I can go, to hide
where no one can find me, secreted
within moss encrusted glades, lost
under stars hovering in radiant silence?

I did not find this place when I was young
or in the years when I gave my life to labor.
Then, thought I, rest will come, a time
of ease, when I can tend my spring garden
under the sheltering gaze of the past
beneath the western setting sun.

Yet, shouts of the present sound about me
calling my name, “where are you, where are you?”
I am loathe to say, “here I am, here I am”
wishing to tuck my head beneath broad leaves
into shadows cast by evergreen sentinels
watching over me, whispering stories
of what was, what is, what may yet be.

Hemmed I about by witnesses ancient and holy
birthed under the canopy of these northwest woods –
the peoples of the land chanting in my ears
pacific surf pounding inside me,
rattling old bones of memory and fear.

There is nowhere to go in this age
no sanctuary or safe harbor where I,
untouched by the swirl of clamoring voices,
can say “All is well, all will be well”
and feel inside that it is so, will be so.

The world – old, resplendent, grace filled –
beckons me out of all my hiding places
with the calm of wind through cedars,
the delight of birds alighting on branches, preening.
They are the touches, voices, and movements
of the present in its oft forgotten glory,
filtering, through green lavish life, the cacophony
swirling, in and all about me, furiously.


Portland, Oregon – March 3, 2017

I began this piece thinking about sanctuary for my brothers and sisters who fear deportation from our country.  I need do what I can to support and assist them.  But, as to poetry, I find that poems bend back to self before they can go elsewhere.  For poets, the question is appropriate: “It’s all about you, isn’t it?”

Deodar

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“We wish to become a pine tree with the wind singing in our branches, because we believe that a pine tree does not suffer.” Thich Nhat Hanh, The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching.


We live under the canopy of the Deodar
with long, horizontal, drooping branches
overreaching our home, calming our senses;
a green and lush canopy of cedar stillness
in graceful boughs, undulating, breathing
with each push of air, each alighting bird.

How little we know of life in our several seasons
but that we care, we love, and we suffer.
We imagine what may yet bring suffering
and with every stir of a portending wind –
flutter, breeze, gust, or gale –
we search for ways out of its grasp.

Over us the Deodar resides, layered
in long limbs hovering in somber reaches,
from whose masses of green and gray
come solace for suffering as it suffers not.
From its heights it drips rain in nourishing showers
wafts about it a green swirl of silence
like whispering words about living and dying,
of nirvana and the end of suffering.


Portland, Oregon – February 17, 2017

The Deodara cedar is common in Cascadia and in our own yard in which two younger versions are ascending to 20-30 feet near the giant in my photo.  Interesting that the name “Deodar” is from the Hindi deod ā r < Sanskrit devad ā ru, equivalent to deva god + d ā ru wood, or, “wood of the gods.” The OED uses “timber” of the gods.  This noble appellation is apparently given due to the hardness and durability of the wood.  Nice to know!

Photo is my own, taken on February 17, 2017

Concentric Circles of Life

Round – the ageless and infinite womb
where from stars spun, worlds emerged,
when forms of light and dark came dripping
wet with blood and the waters of birth.

Birthed, blue-green cloud enshrouded
eons of grass growth and sea flow
millennia in pursuit of thought and love
beyond what creation requires.

Blessed land, sea to shining sea,
buffalo grounds, salmon rivers, first peoples –
stolen, ravaged without mercy
justice silent in the sacred fields.

Winter in Cascadia’s volcanic heart
beaten by Pacific ocean surge and tide;
lulled in the whisper winds of desert
lost but to those who hear its voice.

City in steel glass gridded paved and numbered
bleeding into rivers, Columbia and Willamette –
names without meaning for waters
emptying into the one ocean of life.

Sticks and stones on bare ground
space for holding human life rhythms
awestruck lives moving under a vast canopy –
stars in the night sky, luminous days of glory.

My wife – lovely in age and grace –
sharing sacred ground, soft wet skies
years flinging us about, dropping us here
from places we once knew – memories.

Grandchild coming to be a young woman
growing before adoring family eyes –
giving her this world, making it safe for her
before she sets out upon its seven seas.

My own orbit spinning about
in the garden, among the words
often lost, forgetting the names
walking about, looking around.

God.  Somewhere, in faith desired –
angel whose face we cannot see
spirit hovering close, unknown
immanent, like soft breathing, near.


Portland, Oregon – January 26, 2017

Tender Repose of Our Ancestors

This piece is my reflection on the concluding line of my poem “Continuous Awareness” (January 23, 2017).  I published it but did not know precisely what the line meant.  It simply “felt” right.


Words entered my fingers without thought
in the evening cold, begotten
as if from the pregnant and shivering air.
“Tender repose of our ancestors…”
where forgotten times and stilled loves
become created life again, speaking.

Words work themselves out of our past
try to say who we are, what we mean,
speak of roads we might travel
remind us of those we must travel alone.
They stumble, fail, fall short of the mark,
tell of promontories seen only in dreams,
memory shards of orchards in spring sunlit bloom,
cold light of blue dusk in a wintry wood.

What did I mean when I wrote the words?
They.  They live in my presence
suggesting words for remembrance –
what they saw, wished for, passed on
so to live in the light of the glory world.

What might I do for them this night
but write as they tell me in words?
They fall to me, drifting into time –
nothing more but to catch them when they come.


Portland, Oregon – February 3, 2017

Continuous Awareness

“It is not easy to live in that continuous awareness of things which alone is true living.” (Joseph Wood Krutch, The Desert Year.)


Not sunshine on ice snow brilliance
curve of bird flight
light shimmer on water.

This –

Darkness in winter’s night
lost stars in evergreen tangle.

Now –

Evidence of things seen
under incandescent light.

What was, is, will be –
glory of the given world
resplendent light of ages
tender repose of our ancestors.


Portland, Oregon – January 23, 2017

Prayer for Martin Luther King, Jr.

Cold wind this morning. Clear sky sun bloom
snowy pretty winter scene from a recoiling past.

Now, our nations night deep freeze
in dark days shrouding the lands head
frigid days of ice hardening crevice and creek
cold pressing sharp on every thought –
suffering in street’s shabby tents and shelters
wretched poverty in mining mountains
fear haunting heartland fields and pastures
vast parking lots of America covered in the ice of anger
swept by the cold wind of vindictive and violent fear
hooded in white – hateful, ignorant, afraid.

Cold clear morning, sunlit in gilt on iced snow
stands Martin, shadow covering the land
speaking a dream in warm currents of light
healing balm of sun to shake from tall trees snow showers of ice
green once again with spring hearts of life
lift in light blind seeds of sweet mercy
to feast, all at last, on the fruit of the living land.


Portland, Oregon – January 16, 2016 – Celebration of Martin Luther King, Jr., his words, vision, and dream.