Memorial

They lie in green fields lost and lone
washed in dark oceans and cold seas
in rice paddies and river bends
on golden beach strands and in the coves
rocky and cool in the shadows.

No headstones or markers remain
but the overarching trees, the headland stones
whereon last they laid their heads, unknowing.
Snowdrift prayers over whitened bones
dunes of drifting sand under which they lie.

The breathing and breathtaking world
is memorial for all the fallen, taken away
who become again grainy mineral and spirit.
They now and still extend the forgiveness of death
to the millions more who will die in senseless war.

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Portland, Oregon – May 30, 2021.

From Abraham Lincoln’s Gettysburg Address: “It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us—that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they here gave the last full measure of devotion—that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain—that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom, and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.”


Caretaker

It is not mine, this bit of lovely land
where I have a home, some sitting chairs
a place to cook a meal, sleep at night.
No. Not mine. None of it.
Not the warm room, the living garden,
or even family and friends
who walk with me these broken paths –
who love, long, and linger here
where once only the land lived alone
under the solitude of the roving heavens.

Snow came today, wet and winded wild
covering in slush, cold, and broken sunlight
these sacred paths that know my steps,
have heard my voice and felt my hand.
My enchanted and mesmerizing world
catches each cold borne snow drop
falling from a drear and darkening sky
as if winter blooming flowers dissolving
on window panes, lanes and pathways,
glistening on shriveled autumn brown leaves.

A caretaker am I with nothing to call my own
but to call it home and roam from place to place
on this bit of earth, this plenteous portion
where fertile land meets the porous sky,
as western red cedars dig fragrant and deep.
Here below, squirrels furl tail squeal and, above,
a squalling murder of black crows circle.

It is not mine to have, all of it, as it is.
I live on this land, love and linger over it
yet I myself belong to another, maybe
the heavens themselves, the sun and stars
who cared for this place long before I came to be
have always seen it as their own and will fawn
over their jewel, set in space, blue and white –
the bright stone of earth set in the starry crown.

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Portland, Oregon – January 27, 2021


Life on the 45th Parallel

I live here – kicking along the 45th parallel
between tropic tangle and arctic ice.
A warm hard rain pour in January
greets me in the saturated morning
while I watch from in between, getting wet.

This winter drizzle, chill damp nights,
belong to the realm of burgeoning –
frizzled messes of underground roots
plunging chaotic where they cannot be seen
entwining with others of their kind
where leaves and flowers are born
in the dark cold wet wormy wild ground!

I should go inside where it is warm
with electric gadgets to keep it all safe.
But where then the dark dreamy winter
in these temperate climes and soggy bogs?
Out here, creatures are beginning to stir –
bugs in every downed log, caught
in the tangle of brush by the back fence,
within the rock pile gathering emerald green moss.
All the wonder of life being born and I…
I am pushing out waves of steamy breath
somewhere along the length of parallel 45
under forgiving stars on this winter night.
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Portland, Oregon – 45° 34′ 18.44″ N – January 14, 2021

Angels of Things

Angels of things
drift lazily in crisp air
tasting autumn fruits
carrying them to the gods
quietly waiting.

In entwining roots
buried in plushy ground
they are; in rare earth
that could if it would
grow around and devour
spew me up as cedar
as pine – needled and tall.

Shadows of autumn
leave quivering trails
through golden leaves.
Fallen angels drift down
through and around
all that I can see
and more and more.

A thrilly deep tremor
as thrusting wings
push from a molten core -.
bursts as a bubble.

Time trails into ether
ceasing to be anything at all.
Space shakes and drifts away.
There, on the fountain’s rim,
perch the Angels of things
as birds drinking deeply
taking wing as thoughts
as sweet dreams in flight.

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Portland, Oregon – October 20, 2020

The Closing Door

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Fairy door on oak – November 29, 2016

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Fairy door on oak – February 11, 2020

One day the fairies will close their doors
lock the locks and retreat to the places
where, though we may seek them,
we’ll not be able to find them.

The welcome offered by the green
glorious world may be withdrawn;
the joyful play of creation in the garden
of time – the cosmos in slants of sunlight
on the floors, shadows in corners, swaying
branch movements in the pale air – may
no longer find a place in human words.

Still there is time, the precious gift
given, offered to peoples who alone
count the minutes, stash them away
into the past, wondering, fearful,
how many more may yet be theirs.


Portland, Oregon – February 18, 2020

This is our front yard oak tree, damaged by a hit and run driver. The injury is giving way to the healing work of a great tree.  I like to think that the artwork of our granddaughter, Audrey, acted as a bandage to assist in the healing process.  Then, all the children in the three years since who have stopped to play by that door.

The Blank Page

The blank page waits, offering no help but for intimidating silence
steering me away from the emptiness to the view out the winter window –
the dreary garden
the falling rain.

The cursor blinks unmercifully, questioning all my choices –
my use of time that wraps around me and flies away;
the mistakes I’ve made in the material world, yesterday,
the ones I’ll make today and tomorrow, thoughtless and unaware –
the tedium of idleness
hours stealing away.

A word pokes its head out of the brambles following a line –
where it is going or where its path will lead I cannot tell.
Something is trying to emerge out of the thicket – a small bird
poking around from branch to branch, alighting, vanishing
seeming careless or carefree, wandering through the tangled growth
seeking something just beyond its reach, knowing it is there.

I, the bramble and thicket.
I, the bird.


Portland, Oregon – January 23, 2020

Stories of Our Lives

We tell stories of our lives
as we remember they were
and believe they are:
clear and distinct memories,
what we learned in school,
works of our hands,
beauty we have seen and touched,
who we loved and lost;
all our senses ablaze for a time.

We do not know well our own stories
they, as wildflowers, growing
in fields abloom, bending in every breeze
sleeping at night among the stars –
winter comes and they are gone.
So we in our fields bloom,
bend, sleep, then go our way.

I watch as indistinct shadows move
behind a thin and trembling veil
telling me about my life –
things strange and unfinished,
without beginning or end.

I see flickering phantasms
playing on creation’s silvery screen
that seem to be about me
but, as in a dream, make no sense
as if I am in and out of my own life
becoming things I do not remember,
as if I were a tree or,
on its branches, a tiny bird.

If only we knew our whole story
told by one who knows,
can tell its whole arc
however long, its shape and texture,
and where it bends into the night.

I wonder if poetry can follow
the thin thread thrown from the heavens
down onto the green fields of life
and tell where it has come from
and where it goes?

Intimations of immortality
may follow that twisting line
to describe the contours of being
formed from cosmic nothing –
hidden, revealed, washed away again
as endless breakers on sunlit shores.


Portland, Oregon – November 16, 2019

Gratitude to William Wordsworth for his sublime, “Ode on Intimations of Immortality.” (https://www.bartleby.com/101/536.html) I highly recommend reading this masterpiece. In my own poem, I use “intimations of immortality” as a way of saying how poetry may be able to describe what other artistic forms may not. But, of course, all art forms, even to include the sciences, try to speak to the mysteries of life.

Why did you stop writing?

Why did you stop writing
when I know you have the words?
Your blank white pages
wait for your return.
Are you there?
Are you well?

I lost many words
during years I did not
believe I could find them
out on the tender and vast
landscape of my own living being
stretched across the years.

I did not know they were there
waiting for me to find them.
They did not call with loud voices
but lay silent all along
the paths of the green fields
of my one and only life.

I am gathering them up now,
words along the wayside fallen.
I will arrange them in lines
on the forbidding white page
making, fashioning, creating
a poem from me to you.

Our words – we string them together
as best we can – a gift
we were given from birth.
They help to patch holes
we’ve left behind us.
They help to create the way before us
into the green fields of our lives.


Portland, Oregon – June 23, 2019

I follow a few poetry blogs but noticed I’d not seen writing from some for a long time. I wonder what happened that they stopped writing?  There may be very good reasons. I know that it took many years for me to start up again, so there is hope for all writers out there.  Just start again, I beg you!

Weather and Climate Change

The weather changed today.
In the morning a marine layer, crisp,
lowered over the Pacific northwest –
gray and calm, cool as a silent prayer.
In the afternoon the sun drifted
overhead through wispy clouds;
warmth spread over our splendid fields
as spring became summer.

As a young boy a day such as this
was all I knew of weather.
As for climate, as with all science,
I was blissfully unaware
content to wish upon stars.

I’ve only wanted daily weather –
seasonal changes from warm to cold,
rain to wind to snow.
It was enough for me to know
that climate changes because
the axial tilt of the earth,
at 23.5 degrees, makes it so,
while the orbiting moon flails
endlessly at the foaming seas.

How little I knew of weather,
of climate and their ways.
The blame is mine.
As a boy I lay in the summer grass
watching the clouds drift by.
It was all I ever wanted to know
of weather, climate change
and the passing of our limited time. 


Portland, Oregon – Summer solstice, June 21, 2019.